Sunday, January 16, 2011

There Will Be a Day

Today was a rough day for several reasons...and the temptation haunts me to just 'numb out'...that's been comfort, my coping strategy for a long time and it's a hard habit to break.

"There are days when we would rather 'sleep'. There are days when the emotional numbness of denial seems less painful then the alertness required by recovery. Couldn't we just 'let it ride' for a day? Couldn't we just 'sleep' for a while?"**

But I didn't. I worked my recovery principles instead.

"Being alert means that we allow ourselves to see and hear, to use our senses and mind and heart. It means that we pay attention to what is happening inside of us and around us. Pay attention...even if life is painful, even if it is not what we want it to be."**

I made the right choice because God met me in the middle of the mess and he gave me hope and serenity. My confidence comes from the certainty that God is walking through every step right beside me. And it's also in the promise that one day there will be a place where there is no more suffering, no more tears, no more pain, no more fears...where the burdens of this place will be no more and I will see Jesus face to face.

**from the NACR Daily Meditation for Sunday, Jan 16, 2011 from Dale and Juanita Ryan


Ellie said...

I need this, even though I can't say I am happy about it, right now. I'm tired and want to numb out today. I'm not coping with something well at all, and I really don't have a clue on how to cope with it.

I'll try to get up tomorrow and face the pain and see if there is a way through it.

Thinking of you, too.

Shilo said...

Thanks so much for sharing, Becky. I'm rejoicing with you for this victory and thanking God for the example of your courage. Love you!

Cindy said...

yesterdays sermon at our church was on HOPE

I love hope.

Terri :o) said...

I'm going to commit that scripture to memory. It would have helped me yesterday.

Jessica said...

Thank you!